The whole “2012 is about Small Yet Meaningful Victories” was originally geared towards the tongue-in-cheek…
…but now I’m not so sure.
I don’t particularly see any huge life changes this year, but I am becoming more and more acutely aware of how important those small successes really are. No matter how nonsensical they may seem.
Like a double set of double yolks.
Once upon a time, I used to be vividly aware of the small things. It just comes standard with a sensitive soul.
But over time even the most sensitive souls grow numb — whether by choice or because that’s just what happens when you get older and become an adult and have to control your whole life and surroundings because no one else cares about you*.
I’ve been numb the last couple of years, not gonna lie. And it hasn’t been all that bad, either. I’ve grown a bit of a backbone. I’ve made some awesome friends that I might never have met. And I’ve grown some perspective.
But I’m tired of being numb. Whether the world likes it or not, it isn’t my native state.
And there are people who know me — I mean know me — who are happy and relieved that I’m no longer that dark cloud of grumpypants.
I think I’m feeling something that I haven’t felt for awhile: hope.
Lemme tell ya, there is no way that Numb wins over Hope. Not even a chance.
So while I slowly come back to my natural idealistic tendencies, I am ignoring those Grandiose Possibilities that often pressure the idealist. Instead, I will focus on the small victories that kindle my wee flame of hope.
That’s probably why you see me here more often, too. Not just the accessibility afforded by the smartphone (although that’s pretty key), but the fact that Writing Something isn’t as intimidating when you’re like “eh, so it ain’t Shakespeare, but it’s a silly little blog so who cares? My parents are just happy to know I’m alive.”
But you have to admit the egg thing is pretty awesome.
*I realize that’s not totally true because of family and friends, but generally speaking there are billions of people in the world who don’t care about you versus the handful of friends and family who do
